Dreams of dancing

It's my TOM (time of month) which has never been a particularly easy time for me. The combination of yoga and the fruit based diet had alleviated my discomfort and pain significantly a few years ago. However, in my current condition, I am unable to move as freely as before and my diet hasn't been as clean as I would like. Therefore, I am experiencing the worst TOM I have in a long time-- severe cramps, lower back pain, exhaustion, emotionally frayed. This on top of the daily neuro symptoms I must endure: intense vertigo & dizziness, shaky vision, tremulous hands, brain fog. It DOES NOT make for a pleasant experience.

Thank goodness for the silver lining. There is an ancient, non-pharmaceutical medicinal herb that I have access to. I put on Shiva Rea's Shakti Rhythms, wrapped my abdomen and lower back in heating pads, took a spoonful of raw wildflower honey to protect my throat, and vaporized the herb. It's positive effects were immediate.

First, my funky emotional state began to mellow as a warm & fuzzy feeling settled in. From my comfy seated position, with my eyes closed, I started to move to the gentle rhythm of the music. My cramps diminished slowly, and I actually felt a subtle burst of energy. I stood up and using my walker for support, I did a number of hip circles. It felt soooo good. 

Living with my current disability is a daily struggle. I miss the freedom of being able to just get up and move, go where I want, and do what I want at any given moment, with no help from anyone. As I closed my eyes and let the music take me, I felt the overwhelming desire to dance and perform standing yoga postures. I miss those two activities so much it hurts. But I remind myself that I am regaining my mobility every day, and I will NOT stop working to regain what I have lost. 

Another benefit of the herb is that it helps reconnect me with my higher, wiser self. The one who is able to soothe and unconditionally love me. The one who has unlimited strength and unshakeable faith in the Divine.

I also experienced a wonderful, true hunger. I often lose my appetite when I don't feel well or I want to turn to comfort junk food. But the herb induced a hunger that was only satisfied with sweet, delicious fruit. For lunch, I ate four large EARTH bananas and savored each bite. I even tasted a hint of pineapple and found that EARTH University also grows pineapples! Mmmm pineapple.... V cool!